DEATHIVERSARY: BERRY BERENSON-PERKINS (SEPT. 11, 2001)

Berinthia "Berry" Berenson-Perkins was an accomplished fashion photographer and actor who stood by her husband, "Psycho" actor, Anthony Perkins, through his AIDS diagnosis. Through her better-known sister, actress Marisa Berenson ("Death In Venice," "Cabaret" and "Barry Lyndon"), Berry came to photograph a roll-call of Hollywood stars. In 1973, Berry married Perkins while 3 months pregnant, which prompted her mother, Marquesa Gogo Berenson di Cacciapooti, to publicly call her a "degenerate." During Perkins' therapy to "cure" his homosexuality, he was asked to flip through a Vogue magazine and pick out his ideal woman. He pointed to a spread on Berry. Years later, they met at the townhouse Perkins' shared with his lover, dancer Grover Dale. There was little doubt that Perkins was both sexually attracted to and in love with Berry. Then, in 1990, Perkins tested positive for HIV. He wanted it kept secret even from their closest friends, which heaped a tremendous burden on Berry. On September 2, 1992, Perkins died with Berry clutching his hand. Nine years later, on September 11, 2001, Berry boarded American Airlines Flight 11, which would ultimately crash into the North Tower of the World Trade Center. 

All 92 people on board were killed, including David Angell (the creator and executive producer of the television sitcom "Frasier"), his wife, Lynn Angell. "Family Guy" creator Seth MacFarlane had been scheduled to be on the flight but arrived late, missing the flight. MacFarlane now only flies private. Actor Mark Wahlberg was also scheduled to be on the flight but canceled his ticket at the last minute. There would've been no talking bear movie, and I wouldn't be married to my husband if MacFarland and Wahlberg had been on the flight. But that's a story for another day.

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DEAD IN HOLLYWOOD: 50,000,000 TAB FANS CAN'T BE WRONG (Issue 9)

π™Άπš˜πš•πšπšŽπš— π™±πš˜πš’, πšƒπšŠπš‹ π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš›, πšπš’πšŽπš 𝚝𝚠𝚘 πš’πšŽπšŠπš›πšœ 𝚊𝚐𝚘 πš˜πš— π™Ήπšžπš•πš’ 𝟾, 𝟸𝟢𝟷𝟾, πšπš‘πš›πšŽπšŽ 𝚍𝚊𝚒𝚜 πš‹πšŽπšπš˜πš›πšŽ πš‘πš’πšœ πŸΎπŸ½πšπš‘ πš‹πš’πš›πšπš‘πšπšŠπš’. "πš†πšŽ πš πšŽπš›πšŽ πš πšŠπš•πš”πš’πš—πš πš‘πš˜πš–πšŽ, πšŠπš—πš πš‘πšŽ πšŒπš˜πš•πš•πšŠπš™πšœπšŽπš πš’πš— πš–πš’ πšŠπš›πš–πšœ πš’πš— πš˜πšžπš› πšπš›πš˜πš—πš πš’πšŠπš›πš," π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš›'𝚜 πš™πšŠπš›πšπš—πšŽπš› 𝚘𝚏 𝟹𝟻 πš’πšŽπšŠπš›πšœ, π™°πš•πš•πšŠπš— π™Άπš•πšŠπšœπšŽπš›, πšœπšŠπš’πš. "...πš‘πšŽ πšŒπš˜πšžπš•πšπš—'𝚝 πš‹πš›πšŽπšŠπšπš‘πšŽ, 𝚜𝚘 𝙸 πšŒπšŠπš•πš•πšŽπš 𝟿𝟷𝟷, πšŠπš—πš 𝚠𝚎 πš πšŽπš—πš 𝚝𝚘 πšπš‘πšŽ πš‘πš˜πšœπš™πš’πšπšŠπš•... πšƒπš‘πš’πšœ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πšœπšžπšπšπšŽπš— πšŠπš—πš πšžπš—πšŽπš‘πš™πšŽπšŒπšπšŽπš." π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšπš’πšŽπš πšπš›πš˜πš– 𝚊 πš‹πš•πš˜πš˜πš πšŒπš•πš˜πš, πš πš‘πš’πšŒπš‘ 𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 πš‘πš’πš– 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 πš’πš—πšπš˜ πšŒπšŠπš›πšπš’πšŠπšŒ πšŠπš›πš›πšŽπšœπš. π™Όπš’ πš‘πšžπšœπš‹πšŠπš—πš πšŠπš—πš 𝙸 πš‘πšŠπš πšπš‘πšŽ πš™πš›πš’πšŸπš’πš•πšŽπšπšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πš–πšŽπšŽπšπš’πš—πš π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› 𝚝𝚠𝚘 πš’πšŽπšŠπš›πšœ πšŽπšŠπš›πš•πš’πšŽπš›. πš†πšŽ 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 πšπšŠπš•πš” 𝚝𝚘 πš‘πš’πš– πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πš πš˜πš›πš”πš’πš—πš πš πš’πšπš‘ π™Ήπš˜hπš— πš†πšŠπšπšŽπš›πšœ πšŠπš—πš π™³πš’πšŸπš’πš—πšŽ. 𝙰 𝚏𝚎𝚠 πš’πšŽπšŠπš›πšœ πš•πšŠπšπšŽπš›, 𝙸 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 πšŠπšœπš” 𝙹ohπš— πš†πšŠπšπšŽπš›πšœ πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš›. π™΅πš’πš—πš 𝚘𝚞𝚝 πš πš‘πšŠπš πšπš‘πšŽπš’ πš‘πšŠπš 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚊𝚒 πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πšŽπšŠπšŒπš‘ πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš› πš’πš— π™³πšŽπšŠπš πš’πš— π™·πš˜πš•πš•πš’πš πš˜πš˜πš: 𝟻𝟢,𝟢𝟢𝟢,𝟢𝟢𝟢 πšƒπ™°π™± π™΅π™°π™½πš‚ 𝙲𝙰𝙽'πšƒ 𝙱𝙴 πš†πšπ™Ύπ™½π™Ά (π™ΈπšœπšœπšžπšŽ 𝟿).

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This weekend!

Pick up your copy of the latest issue of the Dead in Hollywood fanzine: 50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong at the O.C. Zine Fest this Saturday, August 24, 2019 at the Anaheim Central Library (500 West Broadway Anaheim, CA 92805) From 11AM-4PM We’ll …

Pick up your copy of the latest issue of the Dead in Hollywood fanzine: 50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong at the O.C. Zine Fest this Saturday, August 24, 2019 at the Anaheim Central Library (500 West Broadway Anaheim, CA 92805) From 11AM-4PM We’ll be in the basement, so let’s raise the dead!

OUTFEST OPENING NIGHT

On our way to opening night of OUTFEST to watch the documentary β€œCircus of Books.” Circus of Books was the first place that was willing to sell my zines. I remember the owner, Karen Mason, saying, β€œWhy are you doing this? There’s no money in zines.” 😁 I found her candor refreshing and inspiring. Circus of Books gave me the courage and confidence to create. 2 years and 15 issues later, here we are.

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50,000,000 Tab Fans Can't Be Wrong!

I’m back from vacation and I have some very exciting zines and events coming up! So please don’t go anywhere. I’m also happy to announce - and on the deathiversary of Tab Hunter - that I am putting the finishing touches on the zine β€œ50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong” on the life and death of Hollywood hard on and closeted gay boy, Tab Hunter (for those of you waiting on your orders, I will be doing two big mailings this week - internationally and domestically). Also, if you don’t know who Tab Hunter is you should start watching some of his movies before you check out my zine!

"𝙸 𝚐𝚘𝚝 πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—' 𝚝𝚘 πšœπš‘πš˜πš  𝚒𝚊, π™΅πš›πšŠπš—πšŒπš’πš—πšŽ! π™Έπš'𝚜 πš•πš˜πš—πš. π™°πš—πš πš’πš'𝚜 πšœπš•πšŽπšŽπš”. π™°πš—πš πš’πš'𝚜 πš™πš˜πš πšŽπš›πšπšžπš•. π™Έπš'𝚜 πš–πšŠπš‘ πš—πšŽπš  '𝚟𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎!"

-πšƒπš˜πšπš πšƒπš˜πš–πš˜πš›πš›πš˜πš  πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ π™Ήπš˜πš‘πš— πš†πšŠπšπšŽπš›πšœ' πš–πš˜πšŸπš’πšŽ, "π™Ώπš˜πš•πš’πšŽπšœπšπšŽπš›."

Deathiversary: There's Always Todd Tomorrow

π™»πšŠπšœπš πš’πšŽπšŠπš› πš˜πš— π™Ήπšžπš•πš’ πŸΎπšπš‘, 𝟸𝟢𝟷𝟾, πšƒπšŠπš‹ π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšπš’πšŽπš 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 πš‘πšŽπšŠπš›πš πšŠπšπšπšŠπšŒπš”. π™·πšŽ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝟾𝟼. π™Έπš— πšπš‘πšŽ 𝟷𝟿𝟻𝟢𝚜, π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšπšŽπšπš’πš—πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŽ πšπšŽπš›πš– "π™·πš˜πš•πš•πš’πš πš˜πš˜πš π™·πšŽπšŠπš›πšπšπš‘πš›πš˜πš‹." 𝙰 "πšπšŠπš— πšπšŠπšŸπš˜πš›πš’πšπšŽ" πš πš‘πš˜ πšœπš™πšŽπš—πš πš–πš˜πšœπš 𝚘𝚏 πš‘πš’πšœ πš•πš’πšπšŽ πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πšŒπš•πš˜πšœπšŽπš. π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšπš’πš—πšŠπš•πš•πš’ πšŒπš˜πš—πšπš’πš›πš–πšŽπš πšπš‘πšŽ "πš•πš˜πš—πš-πšœπšπšŠπš—πšπš’πš—πš πš›πšžπš–πš˜πš›πšœ" 𝚘𝚏 πš‹πšŽπš’πš—πš 𝚐𝚊𝚒 πš’πš— πš‘πš’πšœ 𝟸𝟢𝟢𝟻 πšŠπšžπšπš˜πš‹πš’πš˜πšπš›πšŠπš™πš‘πš’, "πšƒπšŠπš‹ π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› π™²πš˜πš—πšπš’πšπšŽπš—πšπš’πšŠπš•." π™Έπš'𝚜 πš˜πš—πšŽ 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚠𝚘 πš‹πš˜πš˜πš”πšœ 𝙸'πš– πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πš–πš’πšπšπš•πšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πš›πšŽπšŠπšπš’πš—πš 𝚊𝚝 πšπš‘πšŽ πš–πš˜πš–πšŽπš—πš - πšπš‘πšŽ πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš› πš‹πšŽπš’πš—πš "πšƒπš‘πšŽ π™½πš’πšπš‘πš πš‚πšπšŠπš•πš”πšŽπš›: πšƒπš‘πšŽ π™»πš’πšπšŽ πšŠπš—πš π™²πš›πš’πš–πšŽπšœ 𝚘𝚏 πšπš’πšŒπš‘πšŠπš›πš πšπšŠπš–πš’πš›πšŽπš£ "πš‹πš’ π™Ώπš‘πš’πš•πš’πš™ π™²πšŠπš›πš•πš˜. π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšœπšŠπš’πš 𝚘𝚏 πš‘πš’πšœ πš‹πš˜πš˜πš”: "𝙸 πšπš‘πš˜πšžπšπš‘πš, 'π™»πš˜πš˜πš”, 𝚐𝚎𝚝 πš’πš πšπš›πš˜πš– πšπš‘πšŽ πš‘πš˜πš›πšœπšŽ'𝚜 πš–πš˜πšžπšπš‘ πšŠπš—πš πš—πš˜πš πšπš›πš˜πš– πšœπš˜πš–πšŽ πš‘πš˜πš›πšœπšŽ'𝚜 𝚊𝚜𝚜 πšŠπšπšπšŽπš› 𝙸'πš– 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚍 πšŠπš—πš πšπš˜πš—πšŽ.'"

Natalie Saved My Life Tonight

π™Έπš— 𝟷𝟿𝟻𝟻, πšπš‘πšŽ π™ΌπšŠπš•πš’πš‹πšž-πšœπšπš’πš•πšŽπš πš‹πš˜πš’-πš—πšŽπš‘πš-πšπš˜πš˜πš›, πšƒπšŠπš‹ π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš›, πš‹πšŽπš•πš’πšŽπšŸπšŽπšœ πšπš‘πšŠπš πš‘πš’πšœ πšŒπšŠπš›πšŽπšŽπš› πš’πšœ πš˜πšŸπšŽπš›. πšƒπš‘πšŽ πšπš˜πšœπšœπš’πš™ πš›πšŠπš π™²πš˜πš—πšπš’πšπšŽπš—πšπš’πšŠπš• 𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚜 πš‘πš’πš– πš’πš— πšŠπš— πš’πš—πš—πšžπšŽπš—πšπš˜-πš•πšŠπšŒπšŽπš πšŠπš›πšπš’πšŒπš•πšŽ πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πš‹πšŽπš’πš—πš πšŠπš›πš›πšŽπšœπšπšŽπš 𝚊𝚝 𝚊 "πš•πš’πš–πš™-πš πš›πš’πšœπšπšŽπš πš™πšŠπš“πšŠπš–πšŠ πš™πšŠπš›πšπš’" πš’πšŽπšŠπš›πšœ πš‹πšŽπšπš˜πš›πšŽ πš‘πšŽ 𝚠𝚊𝚜 πšπšŠπš–πš˜πšžπšœ. π™΅πš˜πš›πšπšžπš—πšŠπšπšŽπš•πš’ πšπš˜πš› πšπš‘πšŽ πš›πš’πšœπš’πš—πš πšœπšπšŠπš› 𝚘𝚏 "π™±πšŠπšπšπš•πšŽ π™²πš›πš’," π™Ώπš‘πš˜πšπš˜πš™πš•πšŠπš’ - 𝚊 πšπšŠπš—πš£πš’πš—πšŽ πš πš’πšπš‘ 𝚊 πš–πšžπšŒπš‘ πš‹πš’πšπšπšŽπš› πšŒπš’πš›πšŒπšžπš•πšŠπšπš’πš˜πš— - πšŒπš˜πš–πšŽπšœ 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚝 πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπšŠπš–πšŽ πšπš’πš–πšŽ πš πš’πšπš‘ πšŠπš— πš’πšœπšœπšžπšŽ πšπšŽπšŠπšπšžπš›πš’πš—πš π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšŠπš—πš "πšπšŽπš‹πšŽπš• πš†πš’πšπš‘πš˜πšžπš 𝚊 π™²πšŠπšžπšœπšŽ" πšŠπšŒπšπš›πšŽπšœπšœ π™½πšŠπšπšŠπš•πš’πšŽ πš†πš˜πš˜πš πš˜πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πšŒπš˜πšŸπšŽπš› 𝚊𝚜 πšπš‘πšŽ "πš’πšŽπšŠπš›'𝚜 πš–πš˜πšœπš πš™πš˜πš™πšžπš•πšŠπš› πš—πšŽπš  πšœπšπšŠπš›πšœ." π™·πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πšŒπš›πšŽπšπš’πšπšœ πš†πš˜πš˜πš πš’πš— πš™πšŠπš›πš πšπš˜πš› πšœπšŠπšŸπš’πš—πš πš‘πš’πšœ πšŒπšŠπš›πšŽπšŽπš›. πšƒπš‘πšŽπš’ 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚒 πšπš›πš’πšŽπš—πšπšœ πšžπš—πšπš’πš• πš†πš˜πš˜πš'𝚜 πšπšŽπšŠπšπš‘ πš πš‘πšŽπš— πšœπš‘πšŽ πšπš›πš˜πš πš—πšœ 𝚘𝚏𝚏 πšπš‘πšŽ 𝚌𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 π™²πšŠπšπšŠπš•πš’πš—πšŠ π™Έπšœπš•πšŠπš—πš πšžπš—πšπšŽπš› πš–πš’πšœπšπšŽπš›πš’πš˜πšžπšœ πšŒπš’πš›πšŒπšžπš–πšœπšπšŠπš—πšŒπšŽπšœ.

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